A Brave and Bold New Year

This is the first New Year’s I’ve looked forward to in a looong time.

I?ve typically (inwardly) rolled my eyes at people who make goals for the New Year (sweet of me, I know). I tend to get cynical and think, ?Really? You?re going to work out 5 times a week before work when you haven?t worked out in ages? How long can that really last?? Maybe it?s cynicism, maybe it?s a little jealousy (everyone seems more put together/motivated/awesome than [ READ MORE... ]

A Midrash on Two Women and Their Impossible Pregnancies

This Fall I wrote my first academic paper in over 12 years. 12 years! As as a result, I was slightly nervous to write an academic paper for my graduate school. I?m good at blogging, but that?s a completely different form of writing compared to academic papers. So I scheduled an appointment with my Professor, and with tears in my eyes I shared with her how unsure and inadequate I felt in my ability to write an academic paper. She was gracious and encouraging [ READ MORE... ]

When The World Seems All Right

Here I am, sitting inside a coffee shop, and I can’t help but smile.

Life’s not easy, but right now, I can’t help but feel like this world is such a beautiful place.
Every time I seem to turn around, I see beautiful things happening.

Today, I had coffee with a friend who’s a community organizer and is doing beautiful work in Roseville, Minnesota.

Yesterday I was able to help my dad surprise my mom with a 40th anniversary party of when they met. I mean, how adorable is that?

Saturday, [ READ MORE... ]

Get Your Gratitude On!

Several months ago I was telling a friend about something difficult going on in my life and how I felt sapped of joy and happiness, and she made some comment about how being (genuinely) grateful can really help people find joy again.

I maturely responded with an internal, “Ugh.”

I keep hearing how important and powerful gratitude is, but does anyone else have a hard time believing it?

Plus, I haaate cliche phrases (ie: ?Have an attitude of gratitude!?). Most people [ READ MORE... ]

Refusing To Go There

A couple months ago I noticed a subtle but real shift deep within me.

I would hear of someone sharing their dream they had for their life or share about something they really care about, and, internally, I would be rolling my eyes at them and I would think to myself, “Just wait and watch how the world doesn’t care about your dreams and that you obviously haven’t lived long enough to realize that, oh young foolish one.” 

In those moments I almost wanted to pop their dream [ READ MORE... ]

When Your Dream Finally Comes True

I have always envied the people who’ve known what they’ve wanted to do since they were young. Whether that’s being a dentist or teacher or family business owner.

How beautiful it must be to know what you want and to go after it.

I, on the other hand, have spent the past 30+ years of my life trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. And that’s largely because I want to try my hand at just about everything.

You can see that desire of mine in the list of jobs I?ve [ READ MORE... ]

A business trip to Haiti

Ahh, I’m back. What an amazing business trip to Haiti.

A business trip to Haiti? Isn’t that a place you do mission trips to instead? you might be asking.

Yes, it is a country that has had a lot of mission trips to, which is part of the reason why it took me 3 years to finally decide to sign up for a business trip to that country. Because I?ve learned a lot over the past few years how many mission trips aren?t the most beneficial, and, in fact, can be quite harmful to the [ READ MORE... ]

Sleep = Joy. Pretty much.

I know I’ve blogged quite a bit about the hardships in life, and I don’t mean to be a downer with my writing. I guess I’m so busy surviving the chaotic stage of raising littles that when I do get a few moments to myself, I just want to be real. And if we can’t be real with one another, then what’s the point in life?

Add the fact that I tend to be a pretty serious person, it?s kind of no surprise that my writings tend to be more on the serious side. And John [ READ MORE... ]

When the World Devours Your Dream(s)

I used to believe the world was my oyster, especially during my high school and college years. I was an optimistic, glass is almost always full kind-of-gal.

Beyond the usual torment of high school (friendship drama, puberty, trying to fit in, etc), I felt the four year requirement of high school itself was a barrier to so many good things in life.

There?s so much to do in this world! So much to see and explore, so many people to meet, countries to visit, and injustices that must [ READ MORE... ]

When Grief and Love Collide

Whiplash and grief. These two words were given to me by my therapist on my visit to her office last Spring after I shared with her all that went down in my life the previous two years. These two words accurately described those tumultuous years. When I first arrived at my therapist’s office, I felt disoriented. Not lost but definitely at a loss.

Judah was 6 months old at this time, and I was still reeling from his unexpected presence in my life. I fell in love with Judah [ READ MORE... ]