I have always envied the people who’ve known what they’ve wanted to do since they were young. Whether that’s being a dentist or teacher or family business owner.
How beautiful it must be to know what you want and to go after it.
I, on the other hand, have spent the past 30+ years of my life trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. And that’s largely because I want to try my hand at just about everything.
You can see that desire of mine in the list of jobs I’ve had over the past several years:
On more than one occasion I have bemoaned the fact that I only get one lifetime. I joke that I wish I could have 5 lifetimes just so I have enough time to try all the things I want to try!
And while it’s fun being a free spirit that loves trying new things and going on adventures, there was still this sense of aimlessness. Like, why was I put on this earth? What is my gift to this world (besides being a kind and loving person)?
I never had an aha! moment.
But over the years this dream, this vision started to take shape. And it wasn’t until 2 or 3 years ago that I was able to visualize and articulate my dream. And that is to be a public speaker of some sort to large groups of people.
As for what kind of public speaker? I’m still figuring that out… is it to be a pastor, a teaching pastor, a motivational speaker? Will it be full time? Or will it be a part time gig in addition to my writing and blogging/vlogging? I don’t know.
But what I do know is that I love people, I love connecting with and inspiring and encouraging others, and I love the craft of preparing a good message and pouring my heart and soul into it.
And I also like big groups.
Not because of fame or popularity, but I have such a heart for unity that big groups coming together for a single cause is the heartbeat of my existence. We are all so diverse and we all have so much to offer that when we come together, there is so much potential and power in that kind of unity!
So when I speak to large groups, that’s exactly what I see.
People from all walks of life. Different backgrounds, different stories, different connections, different dreams.
And a chance for me to pour into them, share something with them, that they can all bring back home with them and into the lives they live. A unified message that can be lived out in beautifully diverse ways.
And this past weekend I was able to live out my very dream.
I was invited to speak at our church, which is the largest church I’ve ever been a part of – a few thousand members with around 20,000 weekly podcasters.
This has been a dream of mine for about three years.
We’ve been attending our church for 6 years, and we love the people at our church. Through volunteering, taking classes, and teaching classes there, we’ve been able to get to know a lot of people as a result. And so it has been a dream of mine to be able to share my heart with our ‘family’ by sharing a sermon with them someday.
And this past weekend was that day.
To be up there, in front of those beautiful faces of my extended family, was one of the greatest joys in my life.
And just like every other time I’ve spoken at gatherings, both large and small, I walk away thinking, This is what I’m called to do with my life. This is my gift to the world.
I never thought I’d reach a point in my life where I’d actually know what I’d want to do with my life. But this is it… sharing and speaking and connecting and challenging and inspiring and bringing people together so that we can do life better when we’re apart… that’s the dream I’m working towards.
Plus, when your husband cleans the house and makes the kitchen spotless on the weekend that you preach, you know it’s a sign you gotta preach more! 😉
Thank you to my home church for inviting me to speak. It was incredibly humbling and thrilling, and I am forever grateful. To the people who go there, I love you guys more than you know. <3
You can view my sermon here: