Category: Adoption

When Grief and Love Collide

Whiplash and grief. These two words were given to me by my therapist on my visit to her office last Spring after I shared with her all that went down in my life the previous two years. These two words accurately described those tumultuous years. When I first arrived at my therapist’s office, I felt disoriented. Not lost but definitely at a loss.

Judah was 6 months old at this time, and I was still reeling from his unexpected presence in my life. I fell in love with Judah [ READ MORE... ]

My Unexpected Healer

As you all know, it’s been a couple crazy years for us. We’ve experienced job insecurity, financial loss, broken relationships, adoption delay, and an unexpected third child – and that’s just in our personal lives. Add to this the ongoing injustices done to black, brown, queer, and/or female bodies in our nation, and I find myself reeling from hurt and pain, anger and rage.

How easy it is to live in love towards one another and yet it seems so [ READ MORE... ]

Adoption Update

Whether I’m ready or not, our baby is turning one next month – one! And I am so in love with him. It’s been a bumpy ride in the Mitchell household the past couple years, my last pregnancy notwithstanding. Judah went from being an unwanted baby* to a baby who has been my unexpected healer.

(*I?m being very vulnerable here, so please be gentle with me. It?s pretty scary for me to write the word ?unwanted? next to the word ?baby? on the internet, [ READ MORE... ]

Celebrating Our Unexpected Gift

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Friends, we are 5 weeks into postpartum, and while my brain is fried from sleep deprivation, my heart is so very full.

Holding sweet Judah in my arms has changed so many things for me.

Before he was born, I was nervous I wouldn’t feel bonded to him. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to love him as much as I love our girls. I feared the unknown.

But once he was in my arms and I was able to take in all his tiny features and kiss his squishy cheeks, the love in my heart exploded and [ READ MORE... ]

A BitterSweet Announcement

Change Direction by Phil Whitehouse, Flickr

January was one of the hardest months we’ve had in a long time. In fact, the other night John and I were talking about how January was the hardest month of our marriage. And in that conversation John said, “I actually think we’re entering a really hard season… it’s not going to be just the month of January.” It was sobering to soak in those words, but I knew he was right. We are just in a hard season of life right now.

As you noticed with my last post, we [ READ MORE... ]

Autobiography – Complete!

Homework by Ektor (Flickr)

Homework by Ektor (Flickr)

We finally did it you guys! We finished all 159 questions on our Parent Autobiography with it ending up as a 43-paged paper! I just now emailed it to our awesome social worker, and it feels SO good to be done with that. Can’t wait yet kind of nervous to see what our social worker thinks about it. I mean, that’s a lot of personal stuff you’re sharing with someone you’re just getting to know!

John and I enjoyed reading each other?s answers and learning small new things [ READ MORE... ]

To Our Unborn Black Baby

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cherlejoyful/Flickr

As we wrestle with the hurt and confusion and injustice at the loss of unarmed black lives around the U.S., I noticed a major shift in how I viewed these recent losses. As many of you know, we are in the process of adopting, but only few know that we are adopting an African American baby. As I read the reports on Trayvon Martin, Michael Brown, Tamir Rice, and more, I no longer see them as ?outsiders?, strangers, just another person. I now see my baby. [ READ MORE... ]

Overwhelmed yet Thankful

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This is how I feel (CALI, Flickr)

Our Dear Friends,
There’s (many) a reason why I’ve been absent from the blog, but it’s NOT because I’ve forgotten about you all! I constantly tell myself I need to sit down and update you all on our adoption journey, but finding the time has been nearly impossible (and no, it wasn’t due to Netflix-bingeing this time, surprisingly enough;).

We are currently in the beginning stage of our Home Study process, which is SUPER exciting because it just makes everything seem [ READ MORE... ]

Come To Our Silent Auction!

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Sunday is the BIG day, you guys! We are having our Silent Auction for Adoption at our dear friends’ home in Little Canada. And we are so excited about all that’s been donated! People and local businesses have stepped up and have truly made this a community event. We are just so grateful and humbled by all of your support and love – thank you!!!

Now all we need is YOU! To come and support us and have a fun time! We will be having seasonal drinks, [ READ MORE... ]

The Power of (Social Media) Community

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Baby #3 growing in our hearts

Okay, Social Media, we’re turning to you! 🙂
Though some people may be cynical about the value of social media, we believe much good and beauty can come as a result of people coming together online for a cause!

As many of you know, we are currently in the process of fundraising for our adoption, and we are realizing just how beautifully and humbly dependent we are on people to make our adoption possible. If you?ve read the [ READ MORE... ]