Category: Love

My homebirth with Judah

(Trigger: this post contains detailed accounts of birth and pain)

For those of you who are friends with me on social media, you’ve already seen some of our photos from our homebirth. And can I just say how thankful I am for our photographers? They sure captured such beautiful moments that day! Thank you so much Erica Morrow Photography and St. Paul Photo Co.!

For those interested, I thought I?d give a summary of our birthing day, especially since this was our last (home)birth. This post [ READ MORE... ]

Celebrating Our Unexpected Gift

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Friends, we are 5 weeks into postpartum, and while my brain is fried from sleep deprivation, my heart is so very full.

Holding sweet Judah in my arms has changed so many things for me.

Before he was born, I was nervous I wouldn’t feel bonded to him. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to love him as much as I love our girls. I feared the unknown.

But once he was in my arms and I was able to take in all his tiny features and kiss his squishy cheeks, the love in my heart exploded and [ READ MORE... ]

Our Brand New Bedroom!

**So I’m gathering the fact that Baby has determined to become an October baby. He wants nothing to do with mid-September, so he’s choosing a whole new month for himself! So while my 42 week belly and I wait for his arrival, I thought I’d finally post pictures of our newly remodeled bedroom (about time, I know!).

Back in July I wrote a blog post on the painful-yet-somewhat-hilarious [ READ MORE... ]

It’s Happening, Folks…

Well, we are officially at 40 weeks over here! Which means baby will be arriving any day now, whether I’m ready or not. It’s still surreal to think that I’ll be holding a newborn in my arms anytime now! Am I really ready for this?? Can I do the whole sleep deprivation thing all over again? Will nursing be painful? Will I completely lose my sanity with THREE kids now? are just some of the many questions running through my head late at night.

But then I read [ READ MORE... ]

Exchanging my Regret for our Gift

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First time writing in baby’s journal

Guys. We are just 1 week’ish away from baby being here. I can’t believe it! He’s moving around like crazy and causing me to pee every hour but even with the interrupted sleep and my terribly slow waddle, I am FINALLY, finally at a place where I feel ready to welcome him at his birth. Let me explain.

As most of you know, this sweet baby was a ?whoops?. We didn?t mean to get pregnant. And because of that reason, this pregnancy has been the most emotional pregnancy [ READ MORE... ]

To Moms Who Feel Like Failures

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This winter was the hardest winter our family has experienced in the past six years.

Having lost our income for several months to becoming unexpectedly pregnant to letting go of a lifelong dream as well as having my best friend be nearly killed by a drunk driver, I had hit a new low as a wife, mom, and friend.

The problem with hitting a new low, however, is that life must go on. I still have to take care of our children, I still have to be a wife, and I even have to take a shower [ READ MORE... ]

On Letting Go… and Letting In

Letting go…isn’t easy. It’s hard, it hurts, and sometimes it just plain ol’ sucks.

Two and a half years ago, when I was pregnant with Eden, slowly but surely a passion began to grow in me… a passion that made me see the world differently. A passion that made me excited to have more kids. A passion that fueled our family’s efforts to raise thousands of dollars in order to expand our family after Eden. A passion that only grew with each passing day.

A passion [ READ MORE... ]

Autobiography – Complete!

Homework by Ektor (Flickr)

Homework by Ektor (Flickr)

We finally did it you guys! We finished all 159 questions on our Parent Autobiography with it ending up as a 43-paged paper! I just now emailed it to our awesome social worker, and it feels SO good to be done with that. Can’t wait yet kind of nervous to see what our social worker thinks about it. I mean, that’s a lot of personal stuff you’re sharing with someone you’re just getting to know!

John and I enjoyed reading each other?s answers and learning small new things [ READ MORE... ]

To Our Unborn Black Baby

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cherlejoyful/Flickr

As we wrestle with the hurt and confusion and injustice at the loss of unarmed black lives around the U.S., I noticed a major shift in how I viewed these recent losses. As many of you know, we are in the process of adopting, but only few know that we are adopting an African American baby. As I read the reports on Trayvon Martin, Michael Brown, Tamir Rice, and more, I no longer see them as ?outsiders?, strangers, just another person. I now see my baby. [ READ MORE... ]

Come To Our Silent Auction!

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Sunday is the BIG day, you guys! We are having our Silent Auction for Adoption at our dear friends’ home in Little Canada. And we are so excited about all that’s been donated! People and local businesses have stepped up and have truly made this a community event. We are just so grateful and humbled by all of your support and love – thank you!!!

Now all we need is YOU! To come and support us and have a fun time! We will be having seasonal drinks, [ READ MORE... ]