My homebirth with Judah

(Trigger: this post contains detailed accounts of birth and pain)

For those of you who are friends with me on social media, you’ve already seen some of our photos from our homebirth. And can I just say how thankful I am for our photographers? They sure captured such beautiful moments that day! Thank you so much Erica Morrow Photography and St. Paul Photo Co.!

For those interested, I thought I?d give a summary of our birthing day, especially since this was our last (home)birth. This post [ READ MORE... ]

TGIF! or is it?

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Friday is always a glorious day. It means the long week is finally coming to a close. It means John is going to be home to help out with the kiddos and the house. And it means I can actually try to get some last minute chores done around the house to make it look like I’ve been picking up all week because, you know, appearance is what I value most. 😉

Today Mercy had no school due to Parent Teacher Conferences, and I would be lying if I didn?t say I [ READ MORE... ]

Celebrating Our Unexpected Gift

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Friends, we are 5 weeks into postpartum, and while my brain is fried from sleep deprivation, my heart is so very full.

Holding sweet Judah in my arms has changed so many things for me.

Before he was born, I was nervous I wouldn’t feel bonded to him. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to love him as much as I love our girls. I feared the unknown.

But once he was in my arms and I was able to take in all his tiny features and kiss his squishy cheeks, the love in my heart exploded and [ READ MORE... ]

Our Brand New Bedroom!

**So I’m gathering the fact that Baby has determined to become an October baby. He wants nothing to do with mid-September, so he’s choosing a whole new month for himself! So while my 42 week belly and I wait for his arrival, I thought I’d finally post pictures of our newly remodeled bedroom (about time, I know!).

Back in July I wrote a blog post on the painful-yet-somewhat-hilarious [ READ MORE... ]

It’s Happening, Folks…

Well, we are officially at 40 weeks over here! Which means baby will be arriving any day now, whether I’m ready or not. It’s still surreal to think that I’ll be holding a newborn in my arms anytime now! Am I really ready for this?? Can I do the whole sleep deprivation thing all over again? Will nursing be painful? Will I completely lose my sanity with THREE kids now? are just some of the many questions running through my head late at night.

But then I read [ READ MORE... ]

Exchanging my Regret for our Gift

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First time writing in baby’s journal

Guys. We are just 1 week’ish away from baby being here. I can’t believe it! He’s moving around like crazy and causing me to pee every hour but even with the interrupted sleep and my terribly slow waddle, I am FINALLY, finally at a place where I feel ready to welcome him at his birth. Let me explain.

As most of you know, this sweet baby was a ?whoops?. We didn?t mean to get pregnant. And because of that reason, this pregnancy has been the most emotional pregnancy [ READ MORE... ]

9 Ways to Make an Extrovert Cry While Painting a Room

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Here’s a recap of my two days of painting our master bedroom this past Sunday and Monday and what I learned. Tuck these nuggets of wisdom away for when you consider painting on your own, fellow extroverts.

1. First, leave her by herself in the room.

This alone is likely enough to make her cry.  You can skip the next 8 steps if so.
As an extrovert, being with people is almost as important as breathing air. Relationships are life-giving to us as we love connecting and going deep [ READ MORE... ]

To Moms Who Feel Like Failures

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This winter was the hardest winter our family has experienced in the past six years.

Having lost our income for several months to becoming unexpectedly pregnant to letting go of a lifelong dream as well as having my best friend be nearly killed by a drunk driver, I had hit a new low as a wife, mom, and friend.

The problem with hitting a new low, however, is that life must go on. I still have to take care of our children, I still have to be a wife, and I even have to take a shower [ READ MORE... ]

On Letting Go… and Letting In

Letting go…isn’t easy. It’s hard, it hurts, and sometimes it just plain ol’ sucks.

Two and a half years ago, when I was pregnant with Eden, slowly but surely a passion began to grow in me… a passion that made me see the world differently. A passion that made me excited to have more kids. A passion that fueled our family’s efforts to raise thousands of dollars in order to expand our family after Eden. A passion that only grew with each passing day.

A passion [ READ MORE... ]

The Gift of Vulnerability / Preggo Update (11 weeks)

I Like It When You Hug Me XOXO

Wow, people? we have been truly amazed at all the love and support you guys have shown us in the past two weeks. In the weeks leading up to our big announcement, I was bursting to tell everyone and yet felt I couldn?t because I was afraid I would say all the wrong things (because of the emotional wreck that I was) and would hurt people as a result. So while I waited til I was a little more [ READ MORE... ]